Hannah Beckerman

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If Only I Could Tell You

book | Feb 2019
World → Orion Publishing Group

Audrey's family has fallen apart. Her two grown-up daughters, Jess and Lily, are estranged, and her two teenage granddaughters have never been allowed to meet. A secret that echoes back thirty years has splintered the family in two, but is also the one thing keeping them connected.

As tensions reach breaking point, the irrevocable choice that one of them made all those years ago is about to surface. After years of secrets and silence, how can one broken family find their way back to each other?

A life-affirming novel about the secrets that can ripple across generations, with a twist that will break your heart and an ending that will put it together again.


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An absorbing tale of long-buried family secrets, grief and
guilt—with a mid-point twist that changes everything-this is
one for fans of Jojo Moyes.

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'If Only I Could Tell You' really tugs at the heartstrings

Good Housekeeping

Toxic friendship is also a growing theme, as beautifully
explored in Hannah Beckerman's If Only I Could Tell You

Marie Claire

A tender story that will have you reaching for tissues.


It made both Marian Keyes and Jojo Moyes cry, but don't let that put you off Beckerman's life-affirming novel about two sides of an estranged family.


Compelling and moving . . . it made me cry

Marian Keyes

Resolutely heartbreaking...in a plot galvanised by guilt...quieter observations become just as unravelling


A tender portrait of family lives, losses and secrets

Clare Mackintosh

A must-read. An absorbing tale of long-buried family secrets, grief and guilt with a midpoint twist that changes everything

Sunday Express Magazine

I loved it

Jojo Moyes

Emotionally engaging, clever & wonderfully satisfying

Kate Mosse

If Only I Could Tell You breaks your heart, but with an incredible skill and elegance... I loved it to bits

Joanna Cannon

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